Thursday, April 10, 2025

Identity Week

    So although there wasn't a lesson this week, I still think there was interesting insight displayed this week. It was fascinating to see how we all got the same broad topic but all had such vastly different presentations. I kind of feel like I missed a chance to reflect on myself because I choose to look more at research, which makes me kind of sad. It would have been far more interesting to look at what I would consider major parts of my identity and analyze how I discovered those parts of myself. So for this post I wanted to do a mini version of that.

    A major part of who I am that I am a cat lover. Starting around high school, I became so intrigued by cats due to their cute, playful, and silly nature. Right now I have 1 cat (my mom has 3 and we live in the same house so its kind of 4 actually) and when I move to my own place with my boyfriend, I plan on getting 1 more. In the far far future I would also like to foster cats and give them a nice comfortable home until they find a better one. Now how did I find this out about myself? Well I really started to notice when I when away for college for the first time and noticed how lonely I would get without the cats around. Then covid hit and I was stuck in limbo for 8 months because I couldn't finish my degree and I was at home developing mental health problems. The cats at home were a massive positive influence in such a terrible time. By that point it became crystal clear that my love for cats and how much they help me became a part of who I am. 




Thursday, April 3, 2025

The Big Sad

    We all have problems or moments in our life that are difficult to handle. This week we learned that people can deal with them in two main ways which are externally and internally. Back in 2020 I (like most people at the time) had so serious mental health issues. It was mostly internalizing issues as I had extreme anxiety (I had a hard time telling a waiter what I wanted to eat at restaurants) and while never confirmed bad depression. Although this was really bad, I am glad that not much of it show up externally with actions like drinking, drug use, or financial trouble. Something that helped a lot during that time was my cat Mari (and Mister but him just because he was a little baby). She is such a cuddly sweet girl who would stay with me napping all day and purr the whole time.